Done Trying. No More Searching.

I finally have my answer
Though it's not what I wished for.
Does it really matter?
He gently closed that door.

Is it really possible,
That this is for the best?
Though it may well be
It gives my heart no rest.

I'll admit that I've been hurt,
But not because he lied.
And though it is in secret,
My eyes show how I've cried.

No, he didn't lie
He always told the truth
Any brokenness is my fault
I could not be aloof.

I feel towards him no anger
As some may think I should
For I've searched within my soul
And found I never could

So now I must move on
But hear me when I say;
There will be no more searching
I stopped trying on this day.