Eyes I thought I had forgotten

Dusk descends on the world
Shadows collect in the corners
The night is coming on
The streets are filled with mourners.

Nobody told me about this
How me it would dishearten
Things unbidden come to mind.
Eyes I thought I had forgotten.

How can he still make me cry
When he is so very far away?
Why can't I just let him go?
Why are my feelings on display?

He made his choice
And whatever his reason
Against my heart
He meant no treason.

Yet every time I think
That I am over him
The feelings all come flooding back
Refusing to become dim.

Each day is touch and go.
Some happy and some not.
I try to forget him in every way.
But find that I cannot.

Trying, Breaking, Fighting, Healing.

Trying
to be just a friend
Finding
it's not so bad
Finding
it's absolutely terrible
Trying
And failing.

Breaking
What little my heart can mend
Finding
I still love that tall blond lad
Finding
that love unbearable
Breaking
mind unveiling.

Knowing
I've no right to love
Unable
To make it stop
Unable
to forget
Knowing
and powerless.

Fighting
Rationality and her shove
Unable
to make the swap
Unable
to sing solo from duet
Fighting
the sense of the aimless.

Wanting
to be rational
Thinking
I haven't got the right
Thinking
I shouldn't feel this way
Wanting
to move on.

Understanding
this is transitional
Thinking
that night after night
Thinking
that day after day
Understanding
that he is gone.

Learning
from this trial
Living
joy and sorrow combined
Living
with other kinds of help
Learning
to be happy.

Healing
finding I can smile
Living
in a world full of sunshine
Living
for myself
Healing
I am happy.

My Song

Darkness tarnishes
The brightness of my song
As me it slowly banishes
From where I now belong.

No one said I'd be lonely
By my friends surrounded
But I've lost my one and only
My song has been confounded.

Is there nothing I can do?
Will my song now shadowed be.
My defenses toppled by this coup
A rubble for the world to see.

Now black night descends
And my song becomes an agony
As darkness with my music blends
I know that I am staggering.

But night is darkest before the dawn
And surly that is soon
And so my song will struggle on
As disappears the moon.