Trying, Breaking, Fighting, Healing.

Trying
to be just a friend
Finding
it's not so bad
Finding
it's absolutely terrible
Trying
And failing.

Breaking
What little my heart can mend
Finding
I still love that tall blond lad
Finding
that love unbearable
Breaking
mind unveiling.

Knowing
I've no right to love
Unable
To make it stop
Unable
to forget
Knowing
and powerless.

Fighting
Rationality and her shove
Unable
to make the swap
Unable
to sing solo from duet
Fighting
the sense of the aimless.

Wanting
to be rational
Thinking
I haven't got the right
Thinking
I shouldn't feel this way
Wanting
to move on.

Understanding
this is transitional
Thinking
that night after night
Thinking
that day after day
Understanding
that he is gone.

Learning
from this trial
Living
joy and sorrow combined
Living
with other kinds of help
Learning
to be happy.

Healing
finding I can smile
Living
in a world full of sunshine
Living
for myself
Healing
I am happy.