Catching the Wind

I start out slowly, working hard
My steps can find no steady pace.
My daily runs I would discard
But never would I at such disgrace!

The wind whispers through my hair
Begging me to give chase.
Its caressing taunts I cannot bare
The wind is laughing in my face.

Gradually I begin to find
Something long misplaced.
That secret place within my mind
My steps begin to make haste.

Butterflies with purple wings
fly startled from my feet
I see before me so many new beginnings
Which one shall I meet?

So fly with joy little purple creatures,
For now the wind must give chase to me!

Lost

The silence fills my empty soul
Making it more barren than before.
No gentle breezes make me feel adored
I am dying in eternal cold.

Though many an hour and day I've searched
I find no way to escape this place.
While I float in endless darkened space
My feet yearn for a solid perch.

Will no one come and find me here?
Is there none to light my darkness?
My hearts fire glimmers less and less
As I let slip what I hold dear.

How can I hold on
When I know that they must leave
Why am I always left to believe
That we will meet anon?

I must confess both here and now
My faith has been tested too much!
I cannot live without human touch,
But I protect myself as I know how.

I hold others at arms length
I rarely let them see inside
For I know they will not long abide
Once I've shown my lonely strength.

And so I keep it in myself hidden
Blocked behind a chink filled wall.
So many things shall be my downfall,
But who can say the where or when?

Empty

The sunlight woke me
slanting through the window
My sleepy eyes could barely see
But eagerly I left my pillow.

I ran through the wood
Breathed in the clean, fresh air.
I thought this beautiful day was good
Perhaps too much did I dare?

Why this immense feeling of sadness?
From whence does it come?
At answers I can merely guess
Or seek them from above.

I see care in my friends faces.
For this I love them, every one.
But inside I feel only empty spaces,
I wish this day were over and done.

He Never Called Back

He seemed excited to hear from me,
Happy that I was home,
But he never called me back.

He seemed excited to see me,
Looking tall and handsome,
But he never called me back.

He gave me the biggest hug ever,
Wrapped me in his arms,
But he never called me back.

He made, to see me every endeavor,
Made sure I had come to no harm,
But he never called me back.

Sometimes I think he doesn't realize,
Sometimes I think he must
Why didn't he call me back?

He's not the type to tell me lies,
Or turn my hopes to dust,
Did he really forget to call me back?

Will I ever learn to let him go?
Ever realize he can't be mine?
Will he ever please just call me back?

Because I care for him so
I've given every sign
I'll wait for him to call me back.

Crying Eyes So Beautiful

My heart shudders as I hear the words "we need to talk."
Over the phone the voice says "I am disappointed."
Before it's even started he leaves me in shock
He used the worst phrase ever said.

How can my world go crashing to pieces?
In one fell swoop leaving me devastated?
Flitting from joy to sorrow it never ceases
How badly I miscalculated.

How can I deal with this alone?
How can I not when my being is shattered?
From my pinnacle of happiness I am overthrown
Held in despairs darkness, beaten and battered.

From my soul pours forth a mournful song
To the search for the answer I am dutiful.
I don't understand what I've done wrong
I am crying eyes so beautiful.

Freedom

I've let go.
I am free.
But know one knows
of my wondrous deed.

One day I pined.
The next I did not.
And though nothing was signed
I found what I've sought.

My bonds I did not break.
They fell of their own accord.
My future is again my own to make
And the ship to its horizon I gladly board.

With freedom I will voyage on,
With courage and with love.
I'll travel till I've reached the dawn,
And the sky is light above.

Insomnia

I am an insomniac
Can you imagine that?
I become tired at the drop of a hat
And yet I find no rest.

At night even though I'm sleepy
I go like the energizer bunny.
The dark is both scary and creepy,
And so I find no rest.

I wish to sleep I really do
But instead I write to you.
If I must I'll close my eyes with glue
And then I'll find some rest.